Today is the first of my 40-day fast. I'm doing TV, movies, video games, facebook, and sugar. It so far hasn't been challenging at all, but day one rarely is. God told me this morning in the shower that this fast is going to be a lot about filtering. I'm filtering my physical body for one, by not consuming sugar. I'll be filtering my mind by eliminating the TV all together and Facebook (which is huge for me). And as a result, I'll be filtering my heart by spending time with my Father. Its interesting to me how God rearranges our lives when we let him. God changed my life this past summer, and it seems like since then, he's been rearranging things the way he wants them. Not to further my own agenda, but to further His Kingdom and His righteousness. As a steward of the Kingdom, I have a responsibility to make sure that God is having his way in me, and that I'm not living within my own means. Jesus is coming for a pure bride, not one who is pursuing her own wants. How are we making sure that happens?
I may update later, but for now I'm gonna go get some food and Jesus time.
Abby
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Sunday, August 9, 2009
Sleep, Please
I can't seem to fall asleep, so I thought it would be a good time to update....I guess it was what I meant to get posted earlier today, but I figured the other one should come first. It made sense in my head.
On Tuesday I'm starting a 40-day fast....TV, video games, movies, sugar, and Facebook. It may not seem huge, but put those things together and you basically have my boredom busters. I think I may go crazy, but at the same time I am very excited to see God work in my life over the next monthish. Strangely enough, I'm actually slightly (though not completely convinced yet) excited about getting those things out of my life for a bit. I think it will really help me focus on more important things....which is how life should be.
Anyway, all that to say that I will be using my online journal during my fast. I want to keep track of my progress and what God is doing, so I'll be using this along with my regular journal ;)
I've been thinking a lot about purity lately. And not like most people think about it.... I've been thinking about a pure heart. The bible has something to say about that, both in the old and new testaments, which I think is cool. Psalms 24 talks about who can ascend the mountain of the Lord, which to me represents his presence. Anyway, it says that if you have clean hands and a pure heart.....your heart represents your soul, which is your mind, will, and emotions. I find it interesting that God doesn't only require purity out of us, but he desires us to have a pure mind, pure will, and pure emotions. Wow! How many of us can say we are there?
Later in Matthew 5 (the Beatitudes) Jesus talks about the pure in heart seeing God....like, freaking yeah. Who doesn't want to go there? Seeing God is also a representation of his presence. So, I guess you could also say that I've been learning a lot about God's presence, too. Think about it. Where are we going to spend eternity? In the depths of the Father's presence.... its huge in the Kingdom. I don't know, its just like the shallow stuff isn't cuttin' it anymore. God looks at the heart first, and I so understand that. But there's something about coming together as a body with an understanding for how the King and his Kingdom function....and what the presence of God can be like. It totally changes the atmosphere of worship.
Ok, well I think I have everything said that I need to say :) maybe I can sleep now. Have a wonderful night/whenever you read this, and remember that God's heart for you is to know His love in your life!
Abby
On Tuesday I'm starting a 40-day fast....TV, video games, movies, sugar, and Facebook. It may not seem huge, but put those things together and you basically have my boredom busters. I think I may go crazy, but at the same time I am very excited to see God work in my life over the next monthish. Strangely enough, I'm actually slightly (though not completely convinced yet) excited about getting those things out of my life for a bit. I think it will really help me focus on more important things....which is how life should be.
Anyway, all that to say that I will be using my online journal during my fast. I want to keep track of my progress and what God is doing, so I'll be using this along with my regular journal ;)
I've been thinking a lot about purity lately. And not like most people think about it.... I've been thinking about a pure heart. The bible has something to say about that, both in the old and new testaments, which I think is cool. Psalms 24 talks about who can ascend the mountain of the Lord, which to me represents his presence. Anyway, it says that if you have clean hands and a pure heart.....your heart represents your soul, which is your mind, will, and emotions. I find it interesting that God doesn't only require purity out of us, but he desires us to have a pure mind, pure will, and pure emotions. Wow! How many of us can say we are there?
Later in Matthew 5 (the Beatitudes) Jesus talks about the pure in heart seeing God....like, freaking yeah. Who doesn't want to go there? Seeing God is also a representation of his presence. So, I guess you could also say that I've been learning a lot about God's presence, too. Think about it. Where are we going to spend eternity? In the depths of the Father's presence.... its huge in the Kingdom. I don't know, its just like the shallow stuff isn't cuttin' it anymore. God looks at the heart first, and I so understand that. But there's something about coming together as a body with an understanding for how the King and his Kingdom function....and what the presence of God can be like. It totally changes the atmosphere of worship.
Ok, well I think I have everything said that I need to say :) maybe I can sleep now. Have a wonderful night/whenever you read this, and remember that God's heart for you is to know His love in your life!
Abby
Dreaming from North Carolina
This is a journal entry that I wrote on June 2nd, and admittedly is the only good journal entry I wrote all summer. The rest are quick scribbles in between meetings or camps :) I also appologize for not updating since....well, a while ago. Its been a crazy year.
Summer is busting into the mountains, encouraging the flowers to bloom and urging each person to welcome its presence. There is no doubt, I am. I believe I was inviting it long before it arrived. And with summer days peeking through the sunrise and still finding their way into cool, peaceful summer nights, my dear friend has shooed school away and left me with nothing to do. Two more weeks must come and go before camp arrives, and while I should be appreciating the long, peaceful days before the hustle and bustle, I am still aching for something to do. Currently, I am in the middle of my second of many boredom breaker books books to come. "Pride and Prejudice" by Jane Austen is my current reader, and I finished "Mary, Bloody Mary" in two days. That is, yesterday and the day before. I have also been reading "Face to Face With God" by Bill Johnson, but I wouldn't call that rich literature. The one (and maybe only) good thing about in-between times is that I have time to write, free of research and grammatical correctness, and I may read whatever I please- with no need to remember the tedious details for book reports. There is simply something about reading classical literature out of my own free will, rather than under the instruction of a teacher, that makes me appreciate it the way it should be appreciated.
You know those moments in life....the ones that you personally will never forget, but wish somehow you could share with the people you love and have them admire that frozen moment in time even half as much as you do?
Imagine nine acres, with a house in the middle and flowers blooming all across the field in the gardens, and along the fence line. Consider freshly cut grass, a tractor cutting down the long strands of hay in the field, and tomatoes creeping out of their vines in the garden. Bare feet, the comfort of shade under a tree, and birds carefreely (is that a word?) singing about their gladness that summer has arrived. I wish you could be here with me. My assumption is that if you're reading this, you are someone that I love dearly. And, as someone I love dearly, I want nothing less than to experience one of my most favorite things in life...."moments." I find that one of the most important things you can do is, take a few seconds....or minutes, or hours, when you find yourself in such a beautiful position, and live out that moment- don't take it for granted. Sit under a tree, light a candle, drink a cup of tea, laugh until you have tears in your eyes, plant a seed, pack a picnic.....basically anything that has qualifications to be on the back of a "Life Card" in The Game of Life. But, don't let times like these slip by you in vain. Life simply is much too full of sad, hard, and arduous times to not sit back and pause at the few events that make us smile. It surely is not that occurrences like these take us out of reality- they make us realize that life and reality aren't all horrid. In fact, they can be wonderful.
Summer is busting into the mountains, encouraging the flowers to bloom and urging each person to welcome its presence. There is no doubt, I am. I believe I was inviting it long before it arrived. And with summer days peeking through the sunrise and still finding their way into cool, peaceful summer nights, my dear friend has shooed school away and left me with nothing to do. Two more weeks must come and go before camp arrives, and while I should be appreciating the long, peaceful days before the hustle and bustle, I am still aching for something to do. Currently, I am in the middle of my second of many boredom breaker books books to come. "Pride and Prejudice" by Jane Austen is my current reader, and I finished "Mary, Bloody Mary" in two days. That is, yesterday and the day before. I have also been reading "Face to Face With God" by Bill Johnson, but I wouldn't call that rich literature. The one (and maybe only) good thing about in-between times is that I have time to write, free of research and grammatical correctness, and I may read whatever I please- with no need to remember the tedious details for book reports. There is simply something about reading classical literature out of my own free will, rather than under the instruction of a teacher, that makes me appreciate it the way it should be appreciated.
You know those moments in life....the ones that you personally will never forget, but wish somehow you could share with the people you love and have them admire that frozen moment in time even half as much as you do?
Imagine nine acres, with a house in the middle and flowers blooming all across the field in the gardens, and along the fence line. Consider freshly cut grass, a tractor cutting down the long strands of hay in the field, and tomatoes creeping out of their vines in the garden. Bare feet, the comfort of shade under a tree, and birds carefreely (is that a word?) singing about their gladness that summer has arrived. I wish you could be here with me. My assumption is that if you're reading this, you are someone that I love dearly. And, as someone I love dearly, I want nothing less than to experience one of my most favorite things in life...."moments." I find that one of the most important things you can do is, take a few seconds....or minutes, or hours, when you find yourself in such a beautiful position, and live out that moment- don't take it for granted. Sit under a tree, light a candle, drink a cup of tea, laugh until you have tears in your eyes, plant a seed, pack a picnic.....basically anything that has qualifications to be on the back of a "Life Card" in The Game of Life. But, don't let times like these slip by you in vain. Life simply is much too full of sad, hard, and arduous times to not sit back and pause at the few events that make us smile. It surely is not that occurrences like these take us out of reality- they make us realize that life and reality aren't all horrid. In fact, they can be wonderful.
Saturday, December 20, 2008
Christmas
Now that Christmas Break is here I have found some time to update! I have no excuse now I suppose.
Christmas this year will be different in many ways, and I am excited about doing something a little...out of the ordinary. We are shooting some skeet and having tapas instead of a big meal. And we're opening presents at night. I love changing things around and killing holiday sacred cows.
It is really interesting how much your life changes when you put Jesus as the central man. With 8 classes and school taking over my time....it has been so easy to put him to the side....but it is when you get desperate for him again that you realize how much you need him. I guess you could say I became a little mediocre. And life is so much more peaceful when you have him whispering "I love you" or "Wait! don't say that." and it is amazing how he saturates every area of your life when you really make him the center of your attention. Areas I never really connected two and two in....like clogging....I've been understanding so much more and getting so much better. Or sleeping.... I've been sleeping like a rock since I've spent more time with him.
I've been learning a hard lesson through this, too. Let God's plan for your life fall in place and don't push it, rush it, or try to make it happen. Just let him tell you where to go next and let him move you into a new season. It isn't worth pushing it...you'll stress yourself out and get all frustrated. Can you tell where I've been the last few weeks? :)
Ok. Well I think that is it for now.
abby
Christmas this year will be different in many ways, and I am excited about doing something a little...out of the ordinary. We are shooting some skeet and having tapas instead of a big meal. And we're opening presents at night. I love changing things around and killing holiday sacred cows.
It is really interesting how much your life changes when you put Jesus as the central man. With 8 classes and school taking over my time....it has been so easy to put him to the side....but it is when you get desperate for him again that you realize how much you need him. I guess you could say I became a little mediocre. And life is so much more peaceful when you have him whispering "I love you" or "Wait! don't say that." and it is amazing how he saturates every area of your life when you really make him the center of your attention. Areas I never really connected two and two in....like clogging....I've been understanding so much more and getting so much better. Or sleeping.... I've been sleeping like a rock since I've spent more time with him.
I've been learning a hard lesson through this, too. Let God's plan for your life fall in place and don't push it, rush it, or try to make it happen. Just let him tell you where to go next and let him move you into a new season. It isn't worth pushing it...you'll stress yourself out and get all frustrated. Can you tell where I've been the last few weeks? :)
Ok. Well I think that is it for now.
abby
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Aficionado
The sheer activity of the weekend have left me tired as a result of memories made and fun times to be remembered. Thanksgiving week has been a great time for me to just unwind and sleep the necessary amount of hours, as I haven't the last few months. I hope my rest will pay off as the coming week will require much energy and brain power. Oh well.
I suppose my thoughts the last few days have not been deep whatsoever, but rather focusing on the action of the now and trying desperately to keep up. Nothing terribly interesting at all, I'm afraid. It was nice this morning to have the time to just sit and soak in something worth listening to....Pastor Judy. Though I must admit I wasn't paying seriously close attention, it was just refreshing to be there and let her words enter my head. I wish I had brought my Jesus notebook this morning, I should have taken notes.
Well, the good news is that I will no longer have every mother on planet earth bugging me about wrapping up anymore. I don't ever wear long sleeves, I find it more convenient to wear short sleeves and then wear sweatshirts and stuff. I also consider flip-flops yearround shoes and wear them admittedly in the snow sometimes. Well, my dear grandmother just couldn't stand it any longer and made me pick out "at least some sweaters to wear over your short sleeves" and so I did and I am rather pleased with my selection. Hello winter clothing.
Well, my dear furry friend is just as happy as....well, a hamster and is enjoying not being in an awful cage at a dreary pet store with two bratty females anymore. I do believe he is enjoying his time to himself (as do all Syrian Hamsters) and is glad to be a bachelor. I can't blame him.... those females were just whine-y and annoying.
Is there anything else I need to update you on? I'm sure you've noticed by now that my post is going downhill at a rather rapid pace, and so I am going to wrap up and force your poor minds off of my tired writing. I think I will go get some hot chocolate and wrap up in bed with my new book "The God Who is There" by Francis Schaeffer (the man is a genius). It is for school, but don't ya know that when you don't have time for leisurely reading (which is a rather depressing feeling), God uses what we must read for school to teach us what we need to know at certain times in our lives....
More later, my dear readers,
abby
PS
the title was the word for the day and it is rather fun to say. i'm not going to tell you what it means. go look it up if its bugging you :)
I suppose my thoughts the last few days have not been deep whatsoever, but rather focusing on the action of the now and trying desperately to keep up. Nothing terribly interesting at all, I'm afraid. It was nice this morning to have the time to just sit and soak in something worth listening to....Pastor Judy. Though I must admit I wasn't paying seriously close attention, it was just refreshing to be there and let her words enter my head. I wish I had brought my Jesus notebook this morning, I should have taken notes.
Well, the good news is that I will no longer have every mother on planet earth bugging me about wrapping up anymore. I don't ever wear long sleeves, I find it more convenient to wear short sleeves and then wear sweatshirts and stuff. I also consider flip-flops yearround shoes and wear them admittedly in the snow sometimes. Well, my dear grandmother just couldn't stand it any longer and made me pick out "at least some sweaters to wear over your short sleeves" and so I did and I am rather pleased with my selection. Hello winter clothing.
Well, my dear furry friend is just as happy as....well, a hamster and is enjoying not being in an awful cage at a dreary pet store with two bratty females anymore. I do believe he is enjoying his time to himself (as do all Syrian Hamsters) and is glad to be a bachelor. I can't blame him.... those females were just whine-y and annoying.
Is there anything else I need to update you on? I'm sure you've noticed by now that my post is going downhill at a rather rapid pace, and so I am going to wrap up and force your poor minds off of my tired writing. I think I will go get some hot chocolate and wrap up in bed with my new book "The God Who is There" by Francis Schaeffer (the man is a genius). It is for school, but don't ya know that when you don't have time for leisurely reading (which is a rather depressing feeling), God uses what we must read for school to teach us what we need to know at certain times in our lives....
More later, my dear readers,
abby
PS
the title was the word for the day and it is rather fun to say. i'm not going to tell you what it means. go look it up if its bugging you :)
Monday, November 24, 2008
Dream Like a Child
Today was the last day of Dayspring until early December and my homework is barely enough for the two weeks I have off. I've been thinking about so many different things today that I don't even know what my initial thoughts were this morning, except for my generic Monday morning thoughts. I do wish that I was with Abbie Buckman tonight, as family night has been rather lame and excruciatingly (and unfortunately) boring. School was good today, though, and I am looking forward to my first time sleeping in tomorrow morning since school started...7:30 or earlier has been my fate every other morning.
I suppose one constant thought today has been to think like a child again...to enjoy every moment of sheer innocence that you can find. Dream like a child every chance that you get, because God puts desires in our hearts for a reason. Be bold like a child- don't be afraid to dance in the rain or lay in the grass and look at the clouds. And most of all forgive like a child. Don't be afraid to let go. Remember when you were little and you would get angry, but the next morning (or in some cases, 10 minutes later) its like it never happened? Don't be afraid to let go...even if its embarassing and puts a little humility on your ego. It's ok to forgive people...and even be wrong sometimes (did I just go there?).
I guess a big one for me has been the whole forgive and be wrong one- I hate being wrong. And when I am, I do everything I can to hide that fact. But sometimes you just have to break down and be wrong- and the hardest part is saying "ok, I'm wrong and I'm sorry." But relationships are so much more important than being right, and its not worth a friendship, or even putting a dent in a relationship, in order to be right. There's a big difference between being right and being righteous.
Like I said earlier, random thoughts...bear with me. Colossians 2:6-7: So then, just as you received Christ Jesus as Lord, continue to live in him, rooted and built up in him, strengthened in the faith as you were taught, and overflowing with thankfulness.
I love this- its so much more than just recieving Christ and quite honestly having a relationship with him- it goes deeper than that. Freaking LIVE in him- like, everything. Isn't that a cool concept? Every moment. Every dish you load, word you speak, text you send....the whole nine yards. When I think of living in him, I don't think of all the things I "can't" do. I tend to think about all the things I get to do...I get some freakin awesome opportunities that no one else gets. I get to see visions and angels. I get to worship, and laugh. I have somewhere to go that listens and lets me cry. I have someone to play with when everyone else is busy....I have whatever I need. He IS whatever, or whoever I need him to be. If I need a father, he's all mine. If I need authority, I have it. If I need comfort...he's the best.
Next part: be rooted. I think of what everyone else thinks of when I hear this. A tree. But you know what I found out when I was researching Colossians 2:7? Almost every book of the bible has something to say about a tree. They are an important example, even if they seem like an automatic answer and overused. You know what else is cool? Proverbs says this- a life filled with righteousness is a fruit-bearing tree. (that goes back to righteousness. Maybe this stuff isn't so random!) A fruit bearing tree? Yep. So we live in him, we root in him, and we all become trees. And you know what? I did some research- and the majority of fruit trees (apple, pear, oranges...etc. make 144,000 pieces of fruit in their lifetime. Uh huh. Like I said, we're fruit trees :)
Strengthened in faith as you were taught (or we "know our way around" faith). We've been there, done that. When Paul wrote this letter to the Colossians, he knew that he was writing to a church that was already strong in faith, and in other words, he didn't need to start from scratch as he did with some other churches he wrote to. These people weren't baby believers, they knew what they were doing. His goal in this letter was to build up these mature believers, and to respond to a threat to the church at Colossae. So, I think that was his main purpose in this part of the scripture. Paul is one of my favorite people :)
"And overflow with thankfulness." I don't know about you, but I can't hear the word "thankfulness" without thinking about second grade sunday school when the answer to every question was "jesus" or "the devil", we went around the room saying what we were "thankful" for at thanksgiving time, and we made turkeys out of construction paper. And that bugs me. So thankful according to Merriam Webster: a consciousness of a benefit recieved, expressive of thanks, or well pleased (sorry, that helps get the picture out of my head.)
Thankfulness is something that we all hear about, all the time (especially at this time of year), and quite honestly is something I am not. I get so sick of thankfulness being cheesy arts and crafts projects, simple words that we utter around the room, and advertisements for Turkey Day. I'm ready for it to be a heart issue. I just finished a speech for my speech and debate class about how Americans take so much for granted, and how we can change that...it is a serious thing for me. And its something I need to work on. If we can't learn how to be happy with what we have, where we are, then how do we ever expect to be happy? Thankfulness isn't all about being happy, but its about being satisfied- happiness usually comes as a side-effect.
Hmmm...ok, well I think I have pretty much worn this entry out on Colossians. I hope you all have gotten SOMETHING out of my scattered-brainness of today. Everyone have a wonderful Thanksgiving if I don't update before then, and remember to take thankfulness to heart. (isn't it ironic that God handed me that scripture at Thanksgiving time? Huh, I hadn't even thought about that. Sweet.)
Abby
I suppose one constant thought today has been to think like a child again...to enjoy every moment of sheer innocence that you can find. Dream like a child every chance that you get, because God puts desires in our hearts for a reason. Be bold like a child- don't be afraid to dance in the rain or lay in the grass and look at the clouds. And most of all forgive like a child. Don't be afraid to let go. Remember when you were little and you would get angry, but the next morning (or in some cases, 10 minutes later) its like it never happened? Don't be afraid to let go...even if its embarassing and puts a little humility on your ego. It's ok to forgive people...and even be wrong sometimes (did I just go there?).
I guess a big one for me has been the whole forgive and be wrong one- I hate being wrong. And when I am, I do everything I can to hide that fact. But sometimes you just have to break down and be wrong- and the hardest part is saying "ok, I'm wrong and I'm sorry." But relationships are so much more important than being right, and its not worth a friendship, or even putting a dent in a relationship, in order to be right. There's a big difference between being right and being righteous.
Like I said earlier, random thoughts...bear with me. Colossians 2:6-7: So then, just as you received Christ Jesus as Lord, continue to live in him, rooted and built up in him, strengthened in the faith as you were taught, and overflowing with thankfulness.
I love this- its so much more than just recieving Christ and quite honestly having a relationship with him- it goes deeper than that. Freaking LIVE in him- like, everything. Isn't that a cool concept? Every moment. Every dish you load, word you speak, text you send....the whole nine yards. When I think of living in him, I don't think of all the things I "can't" do. I tend to think about all the things I get to do...I get some freakin awesome opportunities that no one else gets. I get to see visions and angels. I get to worship, and laugh. I have somewhere to go that listens and lets me cry. I have someone to play with when everyone else is busy....I have whatever I need. He IS whatever, or whoever I need him to be. If I need a father, he's all mine. If I need authority, I have it. If I need comfort...he's the best.
Next part: be rooted. I think of what everyone else thinks of when I hear this. A tree. But you know what I found out when I was researching Colossians 2:7? Almost every book of the bible has something to say about a tree. They are an important example, even if they seem like an automatic answer and overused. You know what else is cool? Proverbs says this- a life filled with righteousness is a fruit-bearing tree. (that goes back to righteousness. Maybe this stuff isn't so random!) A fruit bearing tree? Yep. So we live in him, we root in him, and we all become trees. And you know what? I did some research- and the majority of fruit trees (apple, pear, oranges...etc. make 144,000 pieces of fruit in their lifetime. Uh huh. Like I said, we're fruit trees :)
Strengthened in faith as you were taught (or we "know our way around" faith). We've been there, done that. When Paul wrote this letter to the Colossians, he knew that he was writing to a church that was already strong in faith, and in other words, he didn't need to start from scratch as he did with some other churches he wrote to. These people weren't baby believers, they knew what they were doing. His goal in this letter was to build up these mature believers, and to respond to a threat to the church at Colossae. So, I think that was his main purpose in this part of the scripture. Paul is one of my favorite people :)
"And overflow with thankfulness." I don't know about you, but I can't hear the word "thankfulness" without thinking about second grade sunday school when the answer to every question was "jesus" or "the devil", we went around the room saying what we were "thankful" for at thanksgiving time, and we made turkeys out of construction paper. And that bugs me. So thankful according to Merriam Webster: a consciousness of a benefit recieved, expressive of thanks, or well pleased (sorry, that helps get the picture out of my head.)
Thankfulness is something that we all hear about, all the time (especially at this time of year), and quite honestly is something I am not. I get so sick of thankfulness being cheesy arts and crafts projects, simple words that we utter around the room, and advertisements for Turkey Day. I'm ready for it to be a heart issue. I just finished a speech for my speech and debate class about how Americans take so much for granted, and how we can change that...it is a serious thing for me. And its something I need to work on. If we can't learn how to be happy with what we have, where we are, then how do we ever expect to be happy? Thankfulness isn't all about being happy, but its about being satisfied- happiness usually comes as a side-effect.
Hmmm...ok, well I think I have pretty much worn this entry out on Colossians. I hope you all have gotten SOMETHING out of my scattered-brainness of today. Everyone have a wonderful Thanksgiving if I don't update before then, and remember to take thankfulness to heart. (isn't it ironic that God handed me that scripture at Thanksgiving time? Huh, I hadn't even thought about that. Sweet.)
Abby
Sunday, November 23, 2008
My Deepest Appologies
hello readers. I would like to start with an appoloy to you for the lack of posts. My only logical excuse this week is that my midterm projects are due tomorrow and the stress and hard work have kept me on my toes.
As many of you know, I have a new friend by the name of Salem Oliver Coleman St. Marie, though sometimes my new furry friend is referred to by the name of Sir Salem or Mr. Oliver. He is a Syrian Hamster that lives in my office and keeps me company while a work away at my homework. He makes a lovely companion.
Life has been ok. Nothing terrible, just the normal stress, zero sleep, and unwanted life curveballs. It builds character and makes you stronger, and I look back at times that I have been stressed and I can honestly thank God for getting me through it and for all the things I learned through that time. Things have just been hard these last few weeks, one of those things being the holidays coming up. Holidays are bittersweet for me...and that being because my mom absolutely loved them. Thanksgiving and Christmas were her favorite times of the year-she went all out on decorating the house, buying us presents, drinking hot chocolate, playing in the snow....she really made this time of year real for us. Now, I am not one to dwell on the past, because I know that all I have is right now and the past is done and over. But when it is tangible, in front of my eyes- like the little girl I saw eating an ice cream dinner with her mom in the middle of winter (which my mom and I did constantly)- it brings back memories of the holidays that I can't forget and I honestly wish I could somehow have back. Like I said, this time of year was my mom's favorite, and she made sure that we all enjoyed every minute- and we did.
So anyway, thats been one thing this week. The daly hustle and bustle of life has been doubled with papers to write and maps to print and bibliographies to keep up. I am not looking forward to my speech tomorrow to say the least, but I will do fine I am sure and I'll make it through.
Katie's musical revisit thing (i have no idea what you call it) was amazing. She sang Defying Gravity from Wicked and blew everyone away. Of course :) its Katie we're talking about here. She did a beautiful job and I am very proud of her. I got to see her hammock that I plan on sleeping in very soon and I am terribly excited that I finally get to meet Brittany over New Years sometime.
Ok. Well I think that is it for now. My worries for tomorrow have caught my attention and I think I will go practice my speech. After tomorrow Thanksgiving break officially begins and my excitement is beyond words.
Have a wonderful night.
abby
As many of you know, I have a new friend by the name of Salem Oliver Coleman St. Marie, though sometimes my new furry friend is referred to by the name of Sir Salem or Mr. Oliver. He is a Syrian Hamster that lives in my office and keeps me company while a work away at my homework. He makes a lovely companion.
Life has been ok. Nothing terrible, just the normal stress, zero sleep, and unwanted life curveballs. It builds character and makes you stronger, and I look back at times that I have been stressed and I can honestly thank God for getting me through it and for all the things I learned through that time. Things have just been hard these last few weeks, one of those things being the holidays coming up. Holidays are bittersweet for me...and that being because my mom absolutely loved them. Thanksgiving and Christmas were her favorite times of the year-she went all out on decorating the house, buying us presents, drinking hot chocolate, playing in the snow....she really made this time of year real for us. Now, I am not one to dwell on the past, because I know that all I have is right now and the past is done and over. But when it is tangible, in front of my eyes- like the little girl I saw eating an ice cream dinner with her mom in the middle of winter (which my mom and I did constantly)- it brings back memories of the holidays that I can't forget and I honestly wish I could somehow have back. Like I said, this time of year was my mom's favorite, and she made sure that we all enjoyed every minute- and we did.
So anyway, thats been one thing this week. The daly hustle and bustle of life has been doubled with papers to write and maps to print and bibliographies to keep up. I am not looking forward to my speech tomorrow to say the least, but I will do fine I am sure and I'll make it through.
Katie's musical revisit thing (i have no idea what you call it) was amazing. She sang Defying Gravity from Wicked and blew everyone away. Of course :) its Katie we're talking about here. She did a beautiful job and I am very proud of her. I got to see her hammock that I plan on sleeping in very soon and I am terribly excited that I finally get to meet Brittany over New Years sometime.
Ok. Well I think that is it for now. My worries for tomorrow have caught my attention and I think I will go practice my speech. After tomorrow Thanksgiving break officially begins and my excitement is beyond words.
Have a wonderful night.
abby
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